this noon, after our grandson's mother left at her house, i checked my cellphone and found its ur memorial day. grand Dad, i didn't attend ur funeral ceremony, but God let me pick ur land, and ur kingdom from outside of 2 thousand miles, in this northeastern corner of China. i do enjoy the task u left me, and engaged with it all my life. dad, where can i find u again? those golder years when u attending my growth? dad, i cared my baby like attending u, i took the world onto him just like u attending me aside forever, rid the need of phisically. dad, my God, i forever attending u, forever listen to u, that's my vow in front of God last year when i in crisis. God, u know, and u forever know.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
dad, u left us exactly two years today
these days i busy with site building as usual. last night i felt a bit sleeplessly for i too anxious about coming google adsense account. this morning i continued to fine touch my homepage on google page creator, adding google friend connect and modifying layout, correcting forms' errs. dog in China surveillance blocked my domain since yesterday, for they hate and terrified by our sight over the world. i determined to get my adsense account, expanding our means to penetrating the world of our sight and message for the bright and in Chinese, Ming Dynasty. i had waited for the messaging method for months.
Monday, December 08, 2008
bright sunny morning after blizzard
last 3 day almost means hell for me. i saw lots of omens about mafia and the insane in China authority exerting sufferings onto my beloved, in which situation i encountered several times when i was in panic and dumb and each time broke my heart and forced me into asylum. however now with even strong link with God, i know that's illusion cult persons manipulated. God never fails me, and never fails the appeal of his beloved and all plight just a setting by God to see u r led to the brighter. i know i am exactly the brightness and i can rid my beloved agony with my vision. i know all my beloved in their happiness and live without anxious, all of them, including myself, forever with their dream out, with the fruits they like in their reach out of the tunnel of blurred interleaved wish list.
sunny day after the 3rd and the most heavy snow in Qiqihar, China since 2008 commenced yesterday. i stayed in peace but omens still haunt me and let me pain. i decided to follow the bright but still i see the wrong love let some persons mad and self-destructive. God sees they r essentially a passing&fading echo in cold invisible universe. they born to suffer and live in scar and in tomb since their birth, like dogs, like hooligan, like cult magician. they doomed to tomb since their birth and die in scars and wound. in any time they just a shadow and shake, anyone can kill them and do kill them.
its a bright sunny morning. the company i worked once now dispatching rice their associated farm grew.i and my baby son live with the grow of my kingdom, so did my arms and my staff, and my people. i live with what my grand father prepared for his offspring and constantly producing and reproducing with the wellbeing God grants. God never let his son and his creators suffer, except the evils, which is exactly a void, just remind human their home in God's shine.
that's my message in history. all my beloved share the fountain of holy and live their way with leisure and harmony, except distress.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
yes, its history, i chose.
yesterday its a cornerstone. the bright morning sunshine turned into snowflake at noon. the Moon sits in the between of 2 stars on night sky. the tv irritated about 800 more years history of Zhou Kingdom. God's message pushed me into wonder since the night before yesterday. i know enemies and cult persons discussed my situation and their viable response. i know God shown me lots of options and evils' bets. i know my most beloved gazing me and some of them begs for my second son. i know some evils in plight in urgency to push me to choose. they seemingly in charges, but they in fact got nothing. my fate in God's set, and i shown all my choice, from then to now. my brain burdened with their reckons and bets to let me gamble. but i from time to time didn't change. i shown my beloved my choice in the past days, and i don't need to blow my head against hot airs from the redden eyes gamblers in the crowd of hopelessly. i live with my God, my grand father. my God. i live in the hope to reunite with my all beloved, for in my kingdom to come i can shelter them and live a happy life with our children with my beloved. that's my message, from then to now.
the coming chill in snowflake really caters to me, for the dirty will around me really need a freeze and tomb to let down them to their destiny. i in need, sometimes the need so strong let me moved, that i miss ur warmth and softness, in ur blossomy face and aromatic hairs, in ur firm caress and ur silver voice. God sees how far i was from u.
bye.
Best regards,
benzrad
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
warren&me now have artistic avatar, with link&logo on it.
i prepared the photo sketching warez the night before yesterday. yesterday in the beginning of the morning i launched to edit our avatars. with the aid of powerful softwares it very easy to got a artistic avatar design. i included our name and website on it, which quite satisfied me. but the process uploaded to my websites uneasy. dog in China surveillance heavily blocked me.last afternoon before the end of work time i almost spent 2 hours vainly trying to upload to qq alumni or my gmail. in the night after i forcifully moved baby who watched dvds for 2 hours away from pc and continuted to upload avatars to qq alumni. uploading finished quite smooth, but when i attempted to set it as my avatar in my profile there, dog again jammed my surfing and forced me gaveup. and they deleted the icq blog of my baby, warren zhu, the hope of China, this 4rd time of deletation.
this morning i uploaded avatars to my picasaweb. but when i backup my files to my gmail, they blocked it again and cut off t he Internet access in lan. they peeking on the lan, and stealen almost all my confidentials. they then broke into my accounts and messed up and blacken/distorted my message under my compromised confidentials. God sees and laughes for the shaddow in the dark of China.
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
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