23/2/2010

3rd snow in lunar 2010.^last night left office till 7pm, after tried to video chat with baby&his mom. their video stream strangely don't appear in my browser while they saw my stream&their own working. remote desk also lagging to appear, all reminded me of cops' breaking&showily espionage. dined in a special meal restaurant nearby my office, babbled about their management feature. a young girl and her boyfriend there before my visit, let me rightly smell the wonder of youth. in dorm, surfed via wap on cellphone lately after 10:30pm. China surveillance again blocked some mobile sites with which i can access my blog, which mostly deadly blocked in China, like wordpress, blogspot, posterous, tumblr, etc. this morning got up at 7:03am, washed socks, then head to office. shot some photos on way for the saint moment of snowing. Its likely the 3rd snow in lunar 2010 new year. God, i know u r killing dirt around me, i feel ur bliss on me. thanks for ur gift i felt so bright&holy. God, bring my girl zhou closer to me after all killings from u over dirt. bring me happy of warmth of sunshine after the cleanse.

22/2/2010

my girl zhou reappears.^last night at first a bit restlessly, dreamed of killing or death match, till urinated. woke up around 7am&join office in last minute of work time. met the Hubei folk on way. he brought some wine to let taste&i did. in office the 2 dogs biting most of time, and lingered in noon break with fast food. the monitor, a mad dog, referred me when talk with the visiting deputy director as having pills that including hormone&swells on body or face. when my kid brother went online, i also erupt to show my despise&upset upon his cold shoulder&self-poised over my good willed&enthusiastic introduce of google products, as well as digital era's skill. i really felt sick upon my kid brother's behavior. he now not only in sin of betray of brotherhood, cheap in soul, but also dogmatize/dogged his property for bargain, like all impotent bureaucratic in dog dominating China mainland. i saw clear in these years his fell&defeat in his drifting career. i really got upset by his sin appeared in these days between our communications. a lagging download wasted my time till 2pm i returned to dorm to avoid dirt in office in tomb chill. on way near my dorm, a cadre now a judge in subsidiary county after his service in QRRS youth league, as a apparent social ladder crawl pattern in nowadays China for less privileged young men, caught me&talked. i tried to tease his cute daughter&shot photo for them. in dorm, i cracked seeds&spent an hour. poodle another hour, felt God's love in me. visited office after 4:30pm, even i almost know its boring online aimlessly&constrained by isolation from the dog dominating China authority. for example, my qq refused my update my group profile for quite some times, nor allowed my adding friends from same ancestors online. it simply report server unavailable, but shits know what its real reason. i pray God allowing me wasting my time on the web for all my hopes upon my Royal, my girls, my new life, for hope is the weapon i trust best. i pray God sees the reality i building with my mind power he empowers, the reality built with flesh&blood, and nerves.
on way to office near 4:40pm, i saw a tall girl with white short coat, esp. a short boot my girl zhou loves to wear. she accompany a girl pal walked to the opposing direction of mine, but when i look back to her, i felt surer and surer she is my girl zhou. her bag, her pose, remind me my long time no see girl zhou, among so many confusing fake females performed in front of me. God, i saw more and more clues of ur bliss, i know from early moment that my girl zhou forever saint like a dew from mid night Heaven, i know she preparing our wedding ceremony exactly for us, for me as her dreamed bridegroom. God, isn't it that my good times arriving?

21/2/2010

a harvest day with posting.^got up after 7am for urgency of urine. dozed again till 8:46am. Its snowed last night, with a mild coverage on the ground. shot photos&posted them with a blog entry in most of the morning in office. listened Japanese album at noon, later switched to radio of bilbe. a preach of endurance as God's bliss greatly inspired me, it also reminds me of possible insult from the sinful office i have been temporarily staying to wait for my bright future, in God's blessing. sorted stuff&chatted with baby's mom, emakingir, who lately went online, dealing with her homeworks upon coming new term, while baby said sleeping, lately around 3pm. when the chill turns thick from the 2 evils, i prepared to leave, but attracted by a wiki on origin of some Chinese family name. i searched my family name, linked to a site, zhuweb.cn. with information on it, i tried to join its qq group, as well as the site admin personal contact. dined in nearby restaurant with pies&soup, watched a born abnormally short man won love of a tall beautiful girl. felt more bliss from heaven upon my marriage with my girl zhou. a grey man i refered in previous blog entry also join the restaurant, i waited till QRRSers flocked to leave the factory, in the aim to meet up my girl zhou. when i approached the cross road, a magpies' croak lets me see a tall girl in white boot on the other side of the cross road. in the satisfaction of the dinner, i visited the local church. an old woman picking rubbish on the way, i offered her ￥10 but she refuted it. so i donated it to the church before i returned to dorm. buzzed baby son to celebrate the bliss of my girl zhou&my new life. baby son told me not to interrupt his watching TV, such a wise mind he has. then buzzed kid brother in hometown again, but he was said by my nephew haunting Internet cafe. so i settled to crack sunflowers' seeds, brought back from last visit to emakingir's house, to kill time. its mostly a bright day, but sunshine turned weak in late afternoon. God, let me reach out to more audience in the cozy of Internet, with which i enjoyed so much and believing more splendid/fundamental influence brings by into smooth&expedient reality. God, let me see my words, my message of coming new Ming Dynasty in my title preceding&seeding in ur shine, in ur guidance. God, let the world of ur's more beautiful and meaningful in proper and grace. God, let me have my girls' arms&waists sooner, for i m ready for the new life ahead. God, blesses me in Holy, in ur Son. roamed outside again after 7pm, met the only Hubei migrant works in QRRS, i refered as a grey man in previous post, who just returned from his hometown journey. talked about hometown delicacy&my life. told him online resource for his dirty taste. God, isn't it a deed of ur's? isn't the evil continues to probe their problem upon me? isn't ur miracle to put faith&assurance in my followers?
buzzed kid brother&taught him a lesson on google's wonderful serivce in 8 minutes after returned dorm. he reportedly trying claiming google account. God, pl let it different from last grey day, let it a budding day with golden harvest! God, u sees our wonderful family life in my Royal, forever! God, in the fresh air i smell my girl zhou's lust for me, brings us together now.